Merry Christmas OOTD

Merry Christmas Fashionistas!

I hope you all had an amazing Christmas! Today is my favorite day of the year! Christmas is finally here and OMG I can’t wait for the all the festivities to begin – Baby Jesus, Midnight mass, yummy food, family bonding, oh the list just goes on and on!

But you know me by now, of course I can’t forget all the OOTDs that go along with Christmas!

Let’s start with Christmas Eve shall we?

My very first midnight mass #blessed

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Ready to greet baby Jesus with red lipstick and a gold headband

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Christmas Day Jammies #santaself

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Christmas Day outfit

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Merry Christmas ❤

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Xoxo,

Christine

Fashionista thoughts:

What did you wear this Christmas?

Any fun makeup looks you tried today?

Surviving the holidays during Eating Disorder recovery

“You’re going to be fine”

This seems to be the motto I’ve been telling myself every day for the past month and a half. (Yes, for me the holidays and festivities start the week of Thanksgiving)  As much as I love the Christmas season and spending time with my wonderful family and friends, I can’t help but constantly think of the food that awaits for me.

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Now I totally understand the importance of food and eating moderately, but as a girl who unfortunately, often falls back into her ED habits, food can be the enemy sometimes. Going out with friends for dinner and drinks is so much fun but in the back of mind as much as I hate to admit it, that voice is still whispering “Do you really think you should eat that? Did you burn off enough calories at the gym today to consume all of that?”

Moments like these, what do I do? Back when I had my eating disorder, I would of course stop eating and immediately start giving excuses on why I’m not eating. During the beginning stages of my recovery, anxiety would flood my mind and I would have a full on panic attack trying to fight the ED thoughts before trying to pick up the fork to eat again. This holiday season, surprisingly, has been a lot better. I still get anxiety but it is a lot easier to tell myself to not to be afraid of food. To know that I’ll be ok if I eat that yummy slice of pumpkin pie. I’ll be fine if I eat the cheesy lasagna square. I’ll be fine if I go out and celebrate with drinks and dinner with my friends.

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So with Christmas arriving tomorrow, ED thoughts are bound to pop up. What am I going to do? Focus on something else. Now I’m not saying to ignore those thought because from personal experience, ignoring them will eventually explode into another anxiety attack. So go ahead and acknowledge it, but don’t let it stop you from enjoying the holiday festivities. Focus on the time spent with family. Focus on the laughter and joy that Christmas brings. Focus on the beauty that Jesus Christ is born and the love that comes with it. Most importantly, I’m going to focus and appreciate that this is another year that I’m an ED survivor and nothing is going to take that away from me.

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Love yourself this holiday season. Share that love with someone you know that might need it. Christmas is all about joy and love and that all starts with you and loving your body ❤️

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Smile through the darkness and love your mind, body, and soul ❤

Xoxo,

Christine

Fashionista Thoughts:

What’s one thing you love about yourself?

What’s something you are looking forward to this Christmas?

Happy Easter!! <3 <3

Happy Easter Fashionistas!

Christ is risen! He is risen indeed! What a joyous time for us to celebrate! This is only my second year celebrating Easter as a Catholic and every year it gets better and better. The Easter Vigil was beautiful as always with the church beautifully decorated and everyone dressed to the nines tens in celebrating Jesus’ resurrection and love for us – dying on the cross for our sins and rising back from the dead defeating death and forgiving us of all of our sins.

As you are probably aware from my previous post, getting to Easter can be pretty laborious but very fruitful. So let’s talk about what I learned from those 40 days of Lent – namely my 40- day Closet Challenge.

Going into this challenge was pretty intimidating and honestly, I didn’t think I was gonna last. I absolutely love my clothes…and I mean love them! My clothes are my way of expressing myself and feeling beautiful inside and out. However, I also knew that I used my clothes as a safety blanket, to cover up many of the flaws and insecurities that I had. When I felt unloved and ugly, I would use my clothes to make myself feel pretty and loved but in reality, what I needed was to accept and love myself – flaws and all. So with this challenge, I had that exactly in mind – Learn about self love and true beauty ❤

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I started out pretty well (as most would expect) but started really to feel the struggles two weeks in especially when National Eating Disorder Awareness Week came around. That week was a really powerful week  for me since I have been recovering from an eating disorder for about a year and a half now. That week I did an extra challenge to learn to love myself by focusing on helping and loving others in any little way possible. However, as great as that week was, I still wasn’t feeling any changes on loving myself. It felt like I was missing something and a lot of times I thought to myself, what’s the point of this? I wasn’t feeling any different than when I started other than I was getting sick of the same old clothes. Nonetheless, I didn’t give up and I just continued the challenge hoping that maybe I’ll learn something soon. And I did….eventually… on March 4, during daily mass at the church near my work place.

The gospel reading for that day was about Love:

You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart,
with all your soul,
with all your mind,
and with all your strength.
He is One and there is no other than he.
And to love him with all your heart,
with all your understanding,
with all your strength,
and to love your neighbor as yourself”
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What a beautiful reading and it was exactly what I needed to hear. All this time I was trying to love myself by focusing only on myself, but in reality, the person who I had to focus on and love was God. To love myself I first had to love God with all my heart – and to love God, I had to love my neighbors – to love my neighbors, I had to love myself. The three go together and to miss one would be missing all three.  Yes – by limiting my clothes and living a more simpler life I was able to love myself but ultimately, the true love and beauty is God. GOD IS LOVE! He made me in his image and likeness because he loves me – flaws and all.

So there you have it! God is true beauty and love. So now what? Lent is over and the challenge is over. It’s time to finally celebrate! You’re probably thinking would I do this challenge again?? DEFINITELY NOT! As much as I loved learning more about how to love myself, taking away my clothes was definitely a bigger struggle than I imagined. I’m really proud of myself for sticking to it but it is something I will definitely not do again.

HAPPY EASTER ❤

Xoxo,

Christine

Fashionista thoughts:

If you participated in Lent, what was something you learned?

What did you wear on Easter?

What’s one way you love yourself and others around you?

 

A shopping experience from a fashionista recovering from an Eating Disorder

Hey Fashionistas,

As you all can tell by now, fashion is everything to me. I love the way clothes can tell so much about someone’s life. It’s a way to express myself in a fun and beautiful way. A way to express my feelings and personality.

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However, it wasn’t always like that. About three years ago during my sophomore year in college, it started becoming a constant mind battle with loving my clothes but hating to wear them because I felt ugly and disgusted with how I looked. I became super picky with how my clothes fit me and hated that clothes that used to fit me in a few years ago started to feel tight. I couldn’t accept the fact that my body was no longer the same little body it was in high school.

One of the worst things about having an eating disorder was going shopping and being scared to try on clothes.I would pick up clothes to try on but once I was on the dressing room line, I would put all the clothes back. Scared to see how I would look in the clothes. I hated seeing myself in the mirror. When I did try on clothes, I hated how I had to try on bigger sizes.  If it wasn’t a size 0 or 1, I would leave the store empty-handed. As much as I loved shopping, shopping for clothes gave me panic attacks and I would buy only accessories.  I went shopping practically every other week and would just stare at all the clothes that I wished I could wear with confidence.

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Fast forward to last September, when I went shopping for some new work clothes.  Standing on the dressing room line, I had my arms filled with clothes, all of different sizes due to the different cuts of each apparel. Looking into the mirror, I was thrilled to be  trying on clothes that I knew complimented my body no matter what size I was wearing. I was no longer seeing my body as a number on the scale. After a year of fighting the negative thoughts and eating disorder battle, I had finally started reaching a place where I loved my body. It was starting to get easier with not seeing my body as a number on the scale. For the first time, I saw my body for its true beauty: strong, unique, and beautiful because God had made me in his image and likeness.

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My recovery from my eating disorder was a grueling and frustrating journey. However, I wouldn’t have been able to fight it without my wonderful family and friends, who were super supportive and even fought my disorder with me. My roommates and friends would make sure I eat all my meals and would sit by me as I had panic attacks. They constantly reminded me of my worth and beauty. They encouraged me to use the positivity and love that I had for life around me and to refocus that onto myself. #selflove

I joined a fitness class where I met my favorite fitness instructor, Cara of the Balanced Bod, who taught me to love my body by seeing my body’s strength.

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My parents and sister would support me and cook all my favorite meals when I came home to visit to ensure that I started seeing food as a yummy nourishment that my body needed.

So as we draw to an end to National Eating Disorder Awareness Week, this post goes out to everyone out there who is either going through an eating disorder or recovering from an eating disorder. Remember that there are so many people who love you. All you have to do is take one little step into the light and everything will fall into place. The journey to recovery never truly ends but every day that one little step means getting closer to loving your body.

For more information about eating disorders and how to help either yourself or someone you love fight ED, check out http://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org.

Xoxo,

Christine

Fashionista Thoughts:

How do you love your body every day?

What is one thing you love about your body?

 

 

 

National Eating Disorder Awareness Week….and a Little Lent Update

Hey Fashionistas!

I hope everyone is doing well with their Lenten sacrifices! I know mine is starting to get tough but we’re all in this together right? So let’s continue powering through! Remember when in doubt, pray it out 😉 #offeritup

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My 40-Day #BBClosetChallenge is going well. It’s been about a week and a half since I’ve started and let’s just say it’s interesting. It’s definitely not what I’m expecting but I guess that’s what makes it a challenge, right? I’ve really had to come up with some creative ways to make the outfits different with just 9 pieces of clothing.

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Same shirt but add a cardigan and scarf and it looks totally different 😉

Simple office look to a lovely dinner look with the bestie ❤

Now some of you might already know this, but this week is National Eating Disorder Awareness Week. As someone who is recovering from an eating disorder, this week is super important to me. This week for me is all about self love. Having had an eating disorder was a constant struggle to love and see myself as a daughter of God – that I was a made in his image and likeness. I was super focused on my weight and wanting to focus on my outer appearance that I forgot about my inner beauty. I became so fixated about how I wanted to look and feel that I forgot all about how God created me in my own special, unique, and beautiful way.

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I’ll dive more into my personal journey on the struggles and recovery of my eating disorder in my next post, but in the meantime, I wanted to end this post on a positive note. So for this week, I’m adding something to my #BBClosetChallenge. Each day this week, I am going to do at least 1 act of kindness. From personal experience, sometimes in order to start loving yourself, you have to start loving others and seeing the beauty that comes from that.

Xoxo,

Christine

Fashionista thoughts:

How are your Lenten sacrifices going?

What is something you do to love yourself?

How do you love others around you?

Lent: 40 Day Closet Challenge

Hey Fashionistas,

Lent is finally here which means it’s time for a little fasting in preparation for one of my favorite season, Easter! For those who don’t know what Lent is, it is a time when Catholics reflect and live a simpler lifestyle to become closer to God. During this time, typically we give up something that we are heavily attached to – known as Fasting (ie. checking social media every 10 minutes #guiltyascharged). Others might decide to do something that they normally wouldn’t do – known as Service (ie. waking up a little earlier to pray the rosary). The ultimate goal during Lent is to refocus our attention from little distractions to God.

So what am I doing for Lent this year? For those who know me, I have a huge problem of constantly complaining that I have nothing to wear, even though I have a closet and wardrobe filled to the brim with clothes.

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So, I have decided to participate in a 40 Day Closet Challenge. It’s pretty much the same as what my role model, Leah Darrow did a while back for the 30 Day Closet Challenge. She only had 7 items of clothing but I decided I’m going to have 9 pieces since my work attire and weekend attire don’t necessarily overlap. Here are the rules:

  1. Choose 9 pieces of clothing (tops and bottoms only). I chose:
    • Black Slacks
    • Black Pencil Skirt
    • Dark Blue Skinny Jeans
    • Cream colored blouse
    • Navy shell blouse with embellished beaded neckline
    • Navy Cardigan with cute gold buttons
    • Mint green fuzzy sweater
    • Maroon and navy striped sweater
    • Red criss cross sweater
  2. Accessories, shoes, jackets, undergarment, and pajamas don’t count
  3. Tank tops (to provide coverage for sheer tops)
  4. Activewear don’t count. They can only be worn during workouts, not on a daily basis.
  5. Be creative!
  6. Pray ❤ ❤

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So there you have it! My 9 items of clothing for the next 40 days 🙂  As I chose these items, I kept in mind two things: simplicity and fun. The tops are simple enough to wear to work, yet not too boring that become super dull. The sweaters could easily overlap from work attire to weekend attire. These items also allow me to go from a day to night look! I am so ready to get this challenge started! ❤ ❤

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To make this even more fun, I invite all of you to join me! Don’t worry if you don’t participate in Lent or if you don’t believe in the faith! I invite all of my fashion lovers to join me in this challenge because… well why not? It’ll get to really test our fashion creativity and allows us to focus on a more simpler fashion life! (Teehee…never thought I would ever say that!) Just use the hashtag #BBClosetChallenge on Instagram or Twitter to show me your outfits! I can’t wait to start this Fashion Challenge with you ❤

Xoxo,

Christine

Fashionista Thoughts:

1. What are you doing for Lent?

2. Any fun accessories or shoes you wear to style up a simple outfit?

3. What is your go-to top that you can wear for any occasion?

 

 

Happy Easter!!

Happy Easter my beautiful fashionistas!

Easter is one of my favorite holidays because well…Jesus is so awesome! I mean he died for our sins and rose back to life! #IJustReallyLoveJesusssss!!! Another great thing that I love about Easter is the pretty colors everyone wears to Easter Sunday Mass!

Easter Sunday is a happy celebration, which means happy colors!! Today as I celebrated Easter with some really awesome people, I saw so many beautiful outfits ranging from pastels, florals, stripes….Ohhh it was ahhhmazing! I’ve never been more impressed with Easter fashion until today! #LookingGoodForJesus

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The Beautiful Seniors celebrating Easter as a family ❤

What did I wear for Easter? I stuck to my favorite color (of course) pink! As you can tell, I was all sorts of pink. The key thing to remember is that when you’re going to wear one color, play around with the shades! I wore a blush pink eyelet dress from Forever 21, my tan ankle boots, my favorite pink Coach ponytail scarf used as a headband, white Kate Spade Bag, and to finish off the look, Apple Pink Tinted Lip Balm from Cailyn!!

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Easter Sunday Brunch Outfit! #50ShadesofPink

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Today was such a wonderful day spent with beautiful people, beautiful outfits…just beautiful everything! I would go on and on about the fashion here but I think these pictures do all the talking!

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Orange, pink, and blue, OH MY!!

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Posing in florals #SpringIsHere!!

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Look at these guys working the bowties!!

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Photo Credit to all my friends: Katelyn, Louis, Rachel, Joe, Alejandra, and my blogging buddy Alison (Daily Moves and Grooves)! Sorry I would have taken my own pictures but I was feeling under the weather, which is probably why this post is super short today. Nonetheless, these beautiful pictures do the fashion perfect justice!

Fashionista Thoughts

What did you wear for Easter?

What is your favorite part of Easter?

Comment below!

Xoxo,

Christine